Away from this body, at home with the Lord

I'm ready
I'm not afraid to die for I long to see You
Face to face
But You wake me in the morning
You bless me with beautiful days

I could only let out tears

when this body groans
and yearns for You alone
My heart is grateful but it is filled with pain
Dearest Lord, I'd rather be
a gatekeeper in Your house
I envy the angels around You
I long for You

I know I have so much to learn
You have a plan.
But whatever it is
nothing will be sweeter than
the day You'll come for me
From the clouds
at the sound of the trumpet
 I long for You, sweet Jesus

Father, this body of earth is weak.
I long for the one You will give me
One that can last for eternity
One that can worship You forever
Incorruptible. Indestructible.
For I long to dwell in Your presence.

You are lovely, dear Lord.
You are beautiful.
You are most high.
You are magnificent.
You are my King
You are my Savior
You are Healer
You are Comforter
You are Provider
You are God.

and i long for You.

Grateful. :)

I can not put out accurately in words how I feel today. I know, though, that I am happy, satisfied, and most especially grateful. Let me, however, share the things that happened to me over the past month; things that resulted to this good vibe in me right now.

First of, my predicament last March (which I shared in my previous blog) is finally over. I do have "meh" grades but good Lord I am so happy I survived that semester. But as they say, endings are new beginnings. After that terrifying semester I now face Summer Term! This time, I am to produce a mini thesis! I now only have roughly 3 weeks to finish the thesis, but at my rate, I am so in for another trouble. Waaaaaaaaaaahhhhh! (Why am I so pessimistic? hahahaha)

Last week I got sick and weak. My body just got all crazy: my head throbbed in pain, tummy felt weird, legs were weak, and my eyes felt always strained.  I even vomited one dawn and was unable to go to class that day. Later I figured that it could have been my eyes (I wear glasses). True enough, after a visit to the optometrist, it was found out that my astigmatism shoot up another 25. No wonder my body reacted that way. I now wear new lenses with grades 25/75 (myopia/astigmatism). Despite the physical torment, I am thankful still because it was not out of something serious. ( I remember my uncle had my symptoms too only to find out he had brain tumor that sat on his optic nerve.)

What else? Israel Houghton and Planetshakers of course. I am so happy I was able to see them in concert. It was one beautiful night of worship and praise all for the Living God. :)

And lastly, I wouldn't want to miss out sharing this little thing that so delighted my heart. After weeks of scorching heat, it rained today! IT RAINED! I held this day dearly because today God answered my prayer and lifted my burden. My room was a hot oven for weeks, but thank goodness it's now comfortably cool. Yay!

I find this post funny, actually. Silly me sharing on things such as those. My goal? Just to let the whole world know how thankful, grateful  I am on God's goodness.  God is good all the time. :)

By the way, my dog, Sky, says hi! 

Haha, have a great day everyone!

When Things Are At Its Peak..

Often I wonder why I, despite all the free time I have to laze around, just pace out and drift away to Imaginary Land when I am already a few hours away from an exam or a school project's deadline. Yes, it's basically procrastination and I hate it effing super! I feel like I'm the most disorganized person in the world and it's pathetic because I seem to be getting worse each day. Noooo...

Prior to this blog, I contemplated really hard. I asked myself, okay, how did I become this...lazy? Stupid question (I know), but it was a start. And then it hit me. I remembered, just last year, I worked my butt off in making sure that I pass those 4 post grad subjects. I did pass but, oh boy, I must have burnt out...I'm not a genius so I have to put in extra effort to cope up with my lessons (I master in Math by the way --- which I now kind of regret).

I don't know, maybe I'm just making up an excuse so I can't study today, but I'm just... too tired to even open up this book I have beside me. It innocently says Matrix Analysis on its cover but actually, everything inside is written in hieroglyphs. No, I don't want to study yet but exam's already tomorrow.... I'm doomed.

But....after slapping my face hard enough for me to shout "Ow!" a while ago, I have challenged myself to put myself together (does that even make sense) and study like I am supposed to. I will eat you raw you stupid book and spit you out on tomorrow's exam.

Hopefully I can manage to pass all of my subjects this semester, although I definitely do not deserve it. I don't care if my grades will all be like "Meh!!!-You-can-do-better-than-this" as long as they're all acceptable! I just want to get through all this pressure.

Okaaay. So it's time to...1) Click Publish, and 2) Turn off my laptop (so I can't read beauty blogs or watch youtube). Oh good Lord, bless me.